Hi there.
I know you feel a bit odd to read my blog post in English. About learning, studying, or other slightly overwhelming topic for some people (like mental health), I’ll write in English. The sentences just start suddenly and finish when I want.
(As I didn’t check grammar bc it’s just my notes/blog🙈)
In recent months, I’ve heard several friends of mine restart (I would rather say) to learn English to improve their skills. I was sort of motivated by them and wanted myself to feel unburdened to write at some length in English, my second language. As I’m still matriculating at a German university and have to complete my master’s thesis, I need to rehabilitate myself and get back on track with the thesis work. This blog, I believe, is the first step of recovery. I won’t go into the details of my health issues now, but that is the reason why I decided to write some topic in English. (Besides, these attempts would also be helpful for my friends learning English, and I want them to use my posts for learning materials;))))
As you can see from the title, “learning is so fun” for me. What do you think comes following “but”?
I know some of you disagree with my idea but just put it aside. The answer is, “Studying is a different thing for me.” There might be a question like “What are the differences between ‘to learn’ and ‘to study’?” In Japanese schools, you might have memorised both words share the same meaning: “benkyou-suru”. However, it is not precise. You will understand what I’m saying if you look them up in English dictionaries. Here, I would say (i) “to learn” is memorising and acquiring new information about a particular topic, language, or subject; and (ii) “to study” is researching and digging deeper into a specific topic to answer an academic question. In short, in Japanese, to learn is “nara-u”, and “to study” is “kenkyu-suru”. I thought I understood the differences between learning and studying, but just regarding the word’s meaning. So, what I meant is researching is overwhelming to me (sometimes).
There is a saying that “it is difficult because you have not started yet”; that is, “if you once start a thing, it is not difficult.” IK! FR! But it is so hard to start that you think it is a huge task. One of my problems is mental health issues, which might get better with medicines. How far you tried hard to work on something, in some cases, brain bugs (Idk the right expression for this) make things harder, like the software bugs make a mess in the pc. The other issues that I should face are cognitive issues and scheduling. This would come next to the medicine treat, but I need to change my view of the research and push myself a bit to finish my thesis (and to remember, studying is really interesting).
Reviewing my January, I made notes on “what I really wanted to do” and “what I need to quit”. Through this journaling, I have realised that “I WANT to make time to learning” (unfortunately, it is not studying yet..). I wanted to make more time for my language learning, building skills for illustrations, and gathering knowledge that would be helpful for my thesis! Not doing what I want to do puts heavy pressure on me, and it might make my health state worth it (idk tho).
